Everything Changes

 

    Today I listened to a song on Spotify sung by Sara Bareilles called "Everything Changes". Today, November 13th, in 1982 was Regina's original due date. I know that due dates are a kind of average and two weeks either side is pretty normal. Regina was born 12 weeks before her due date though. I was single, with no family nearby. She and I had a rough road ahead of us. We are still on that road. It wasn't long before she had an adopted father, and later, a sister. The road is a lot less lonely now. Today I say a prayer for all the single mothers giving birth, especially in traumatic circumstances, full of love and worry, joy and fears. May they know some comfort.

    Listening to this song brought up wells of emotion all these 38 years later. Here are the lyrics:

Today's a day like any other
But I am changed
I am a mother
Oh in an instant
And who I was has disappeared
It doesn't matter, now you're here
So innocent
I was lost for you to find
And now I'm yours and you are mine

Two tiny hands, a pair of eyes
An unsung melody is mine for safekeeping
And I will guard it with my life
I'd hang the moon for it to shine on her sleeping
Starting here and starting now
I can feel the heart of how

Everything changes
My heart's at the wheel now
And all my mistakes
They make sense when I turn them around
Everything changes
What I thought was so permanent fades
And I swear I'll remember to say we were both born today
Oh, and it's true
What did I do to deserve you

I didn't know, but now I see
Sometimes what is, is meant to be
You saved me
My blurry lines, my messy life
Come into focus in time, maybe
I can heal and I can breathe

'Cause I can feel myself believe

That everything changes
My heart's at the wheel now
And all my mistakes
They make sense when I turn them around
Everything changes
What I thought was so permanent fades
And I swear I'll remember to say we were both born today
Oh, and it's true
What did I do to deserve you
Thank God for you